by Mad Mardigan
(Florida)
I can’t believe I cheated on him!
My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 4 years and needless to say, things have become stale. I mean, I love him completely, but his idea of romance is taking his socks off when we have sex.
Last Friday, I was at a house party my friend was putting on. My boring boyfriend decided to hang out with his buddies playing Halo all night and being antisocial. I was pretty angry when I got to the party, but I decided to not let it bother me and have some fun.
When I got there, my friend Ashley started handing me shots of tequila. Things were looking up. And then I saw him… There wasn’t anything particularly gorgeous about “Fabio,” but he was cute and had dimples and for some reason, I couldn’t take my eyes off of him!
That’s never happened to me before! The tequila was softening everything so I decided to go talk to him. Oh my God! He was smart and funny and he smelled incredible. We talked the whole night about some really deep things.
Still, I can’t believe I cheated, but when he asked me if I wanted to go up in my friend’s kid’s treehouse to make out, I said yes without hesitation.
You probably know the rest of the story: kissing lead to undressing, undressing lead to fooling around, and that lead to some of the best sex I’ve had in… well… five years.
I feel bad for my boyfriend and I can’t believe I cheated, but I think I really needed this. It’s really made me examine my relationship and whether I need to either make things work or let him go. Have you ever met someone that you were completely captivated by? Oh my God! I get tingly just thinking about it!
Our Advice to You
You might as well end it
Just by the fact that you’re getting all tingly about thinking about cheating on your boyfriend is a good enough reason to end things. Some people get to this point and they feel awful. Since you’re not really feeling the pain and guilt of cheating, it indicates that you are pretty much done with this relationship. Don’t waste another several years torturing yourself (and torturing him too). Set him free and go get your groove back!
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