by Madison
(Next to a big black horse and a cherry tree)
A little about Joe: Joe is very smart, but he has very intense emotions, his ability to feel hate, sadness, and happiness is like ten times stronger than a normal person. He can read people like no other; he can tell what you’re thinking like some kind of psychic or something, its almost scary.
He can also be very manipulative and convincing. He does not get along with his family and was kicked out when he is 16. He’s just naturally good at selling stolen items and talking to cops and shit like that. He really is alone in the world, he has no one who truly cares about him, except Kelsie and I maybe.
1. Joe and I became friends on the bus when I was in 8th grade and he was in 9th, he was dating my friend Kelsie who also rode our bus, he was busy with her most the time but when she didn’t ride or got off, Joe would come sit by me and we would talk and we were always on the edge of flirting.
2. Joe and Kelsie were having sex and Joe snuck over to Kelsie one day, they got caught and their parents forbid them to see each other.
3. Kelsie moved away, it’s now the summer and I run into Joe at the fair, we agree to sneak out together that night and talk. Joe kisses me that night and I start seeing him in a different way.
4. We hang out like this 3 more times, each time he presses to have sex more and more, I always shoot him down.
5. It’s the 5th night we hang out, we are making out and I let him finger me and all of a sudden, he just goes for it, I told him to stop I don’t wanna have sex, but he doesn’t. 2 minutes later when he is done I just get up and go home. I deny the fact that I was raped, it was just sex and Joe and I should be a couple because of what happened.
6. Joe doesn’t call me or anything the next day, it’s a month later and all of a sudden he is trying to hook up with my bff, he tells me he just doesn’t like me like he thought.
7. School starts and he tells EVERYONE we had sex, I “hate” his guts till Christmas rolls around and he apologizes and talks me into hangin out with him again.
8. He brought me something to drink that night….I woke up in the hospital, I don’t remember what happened.
9. Joe and I don’t talk much after that, I asked if we had sex he said no, but then I heard a few people say he said otherwise.
10. Joe and I reconncect in the summer, he says he has been thinking about me a lot lately and we eventually actually end up dating.
11. We hangout and just like old times he presses for sex, but I know how to handle him and myself so im not in another rape position.
12. He finally tells me if we don’t have sex that I shouldn’t be surprised if something happens??? So I break up with him.
13. Kelsie moves back and Joe gets back together with her. The parents don’t like this so they run away together.
14. A year later Joe is back, him and Kelsie are once again over and now they legally are not allowed to see each other.
15. I have a boyfriend now, but Joe has decided to talk to me again, he tells me how good I look and we have some deep conversations about life n stuff, the next day he sees me kiss my boyfriend and he looked… hurt.
16. Eventually I cheat on my boyfriend with Joe and of course break up with my boyfriend to go to prom with Joe since he asked.
17. A week later I hear Joe was foolin around with some chick so I fool around on him, he doesn’t like this and ditches me for prom.
18. 6 months later I run into him at a party and tell him how much of a fuck up loser he is and to just stay out of my life. He talks me out of my anger and he agrees to just be a friend, I told him that’s what I wanted and he said that he will agree to that, I deserve it. He also apologized for everything.
19. Joe doesn’t keep his word he starts sweet talking me again and eventually we hook up, he tells me he isn’t going to leave me this time and that we can make it work… this lasts about 2 weeks then Joe is all of a sudden MIA, I don’t hear from him for awhile, next I find out that he was dating Kelsie while with me and Kelsie and I get into an argument about it, next I find out, Joe is in jail…
20. And this is where we are now. I know Joe is no good for me, but damn I love him. I believe a small part of him cares about me but I just make it to easy for him to take advantage of me. And not to mention, he loves Kelsie… I’m second best.
Anyway, Kelsie told him she knew about us and ended it, now all of a sudden a good friend of Joe’s who visits him in jail is telling me Joe wants me to write him. Should I? I am very curious as to what he has to say to me, and what do I even say to him?